i'm starting to think that i'm never going to feel as old as i am. more and more, i feel like, one day, someone's going to catch me playing pretend in a world where i don't really belong. i pretend to work, to go to school, to be responsible, but one day the dress-up clothes are going to going to fall off and i'll be caught wearing an over-sized pair of high heals and my mother's lipstick.
i know that i'm not the only one that feels like this. i can't be. so where do i learn to pretend better? how do i learn to grow-up?
